So, I’m going to first let you all in on a little secret. Ready? Pastors are real people with real world problems. Some of us can act super saved and pretend we have it all together. I’m not one of them. I struggle with the same things you do, I cuss when people cut me off in traffic, I love doing things outside of the church. I’m just a real person who happens to be called to ministry.
Well one of the things I’ve been thinking about lately is holding on to grudges. Not too long ago I encountered someone I feel was dead wrong for the way she acted and treated me, not to mention an entire church. For the past two years I have dreamed about being alone with her and the things I would say. Then the opportunity presented itself and my worship leader said something to the effect of let it go.
Now, I realize these words have been said and sung for over the past year since the release of Frozen. I’ve never seen the movie but from what I gather the main character is coming to terms with who she is and instead of hiding it, decides to just let it go. Not my particular story, but she says something in the song which brings me back to my situation. THE PAST IS IN THE PAST. LET IT GO.
The truth is as much as I feel wronged by a person’s actions I can’t change the past or force them to feel any remorse. All I can do is live my life. In that moment I decided she had too much power to raise my blood pressure and disturb my sense of peace. As long as I held on to these feelings I couldn’t be free or even happy. Who have you allowed to hold the keys to your happiness and what are you going to do about it? In October we will explore the topic of forgiveness at one of our Questions of the Soul, but you don’t have to wait until then to let it go. Whoever-or whatever-has held you hostage let it go. You’ll be much happier when you do.
And who knows…at some point I may even be willing to give her a second chance…